Minds

Sometimes I can't record the sense in my articles, but the minds are already such and my minds are chaotic, but they have the sense always.

Invisible minds 7: The Love

I just seen a film "The bridge of San luis rey" and realized one thing. The love, it's one emotion, which is making of humans that what they are. Human like one animal is capable feel the love, the true love. No animal is capable feel or show this deep emotion. Animals feel only loyality to own kind and life, but not feel the love like humans. Pets have only like to own proprietor, they are loyal becouse sense proprietor like source of food, but can be woman with man only becouse man give her the food? Of course not! Human need someone who understand him, someone who appreciate him, someone who see more in him than only human or sex symbol. The love need everyone either like friendship or relationship. The love is the reason why human learn or hate. The love is power to live, it's power to exist. The love is craving be whole and don't be alone.
The love is in all life humans, it's detail, which has weight and power change all or nothing. The love is making of humans awesome beings and strange animals. Although death to come love stay, it's like a bridge, which join two beings together forever.

Minds of fallen angel

Was beautiful to be a child somewhere on the start of life when all had own magic melody and all was easy. I belived in fairies and I seen them when the wind played with the tree leaves and heard their sing, which sounded like a rainbow. I had own world where wasn't evil and weren't bad minds. I was angel among fairies, which fell on this ground, so that gave a love all live beings.

The life broken me my wings and people crushed them into the ground, grave of my soul. My little fairies died under the weight of pain and tears. My own world full beauty was destroyed. The one what was left is memory.
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I wish be dancing with man of my heart, be dancing with him in dance of full love, passion and life, which resurect old melody of fairies.

Nobody asked me if I want born, so you don't say me how I've got live! That what I am is my naturaly.
I caught a butterfly- died,
I tore a flower- faded,
I realized that may to touch all what is beautiful only my heart.

Search best men among people, which the world condemn.

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I need love!

To have the wings, I fly to you into arms, becouse only there is my nest.

I don't want promise a lie, only love and sincerity.

Open your arms, I need you!

Love me forever!

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Invisible minds 6: Satan and Satanismus

Satan is my favorite being of this world. How I wrote already into my blog on myspace.com I feel Satan like the freedom, like best friend of humanity and humans. But LaVey's bible don't enjoy too me. In my life are becoming strange things and strangest thing is I can feel the way in the magic. I realized it when I had my first book about magic and what I read so I done it before them. First I was shoking, but gradually I got used. Now I'm feeling the books like a window or door to knowledge, but in other sense than you think now. Sometimes I have feeling like all this knowledges was in my head always, but I didn't known it and when I read some book I remember on them. I just say it is nothing, although it's crazy I can't say it unexist, becouse it was lie and I am sincere person.
Thanks them I have own interpretacion of Satan, which is going out of LaVey's bible, of course.

This pic "Bafomet" represent Satan, but it's only symbolic represent no his appearance.

Bafomet's symbolic of Satan's character:
1. Half billy goat body and half human body- It's symbol, which say: "The human is animal like every other," and: "I don't see humans like something more than animals."
2. Wings- are symbol of the protection.
3. Symbol of healers in the lap- It symbolize will to heal, but and it's symbol for these words(in sense need): "The needs must be make full, becouse all live beings have the needs and their unmaking full lead to the disease."
4. Moons- notice them: moons look like Asia's balance jin and jang and here is represent of balance and it mean Satan is in the balance, so he isn't bad, but nor good. He is all, bad and good.
5. Fire crown and pentagram of white magic- It mean Satan is higher being on the higher level of existence. Pentagram of white magic is symbol the way of soul on next level of existence.
6. Horns- using billy goat isn't coincidence, becouse horns are symbol of truth.

This is my interpretation of Satan through Bafomet.

Satanismus isn't about God, Satan or magic. Satanismus is about people and life. Satan only show, that no men need the God, so that can live or forgive. Every men is own God and therefore has possible of choice.
Why listen to some God and keep his rules, when every men is little God, which feel what is right or not.

Invisible minds 5: Sweet dreams

I belive in the dreams and their power. I belive, that the dreams are the window into the other world, where is all possible and where the time is relative. I belive in dreams we can see the future and the Past. Once became me I seen own past in the dream and from my 7 years I see own future, but when I wake up so I forget it only when become something I remember on them and then I can compare the details, because sometimes these details differ like when my friend came to me out before our house and I remember, that in my dream he had t-shirt of other color and I asked him why have he no blue t-shirt and he answered me "I wanted take blue, but I took red in the end." After this experience I'm saying: "The furute isn't one probable link, but it's a lot of probable links, although comes true only one most probable link." The links are still changing. People's decision affects final form of link. Therefore a lot of predictions aren't total exact, because details are still changing.
Sometimes I have fear, that I will see own death and thanks them I appreciate my life and I'm doing all, so that my life was such what I want, so that I could say : "Yes, I lived great, long life ful love and feeling and all had the sense," in the last hour of life.

Invisible minds 4: Gothic art pics

Many people is saying: " What is beautiful on the bloody pics. It has no sense and it's disgusting!" But gothic artiest are seeing this else. Every pic is representing some mind, opinion or feeling.
The truth is a lot of people have own world and all what don't fit in their imagines about this world they defame it, because they have a fear loose ground under the legs. The people are used on their manner of life and all other is scaring them. And this their fear is something like power with which want destroy source own fear.

Our art is ful emotions, nightmares and dreams, but it's about life and death too. Gothic men see all not only life, but death too. Gothic men see start and the end. Everybody know that all must once end, love and life. We all are reconcile with them, but we know too, that feelings will go with us all the way to the grave. All what we have and what can nobody take to us are just our feelings and minds. The end can all, but we will remember...

Maybe we are other, but we aren't total different.

Invisible minds 3: Religion

When I was child and I thought, that all world is against me and all hate me. I met with one woman, which began learn me about God. I felt him like something what help me, but I began realize, that God isn't helping to believers dispose of pain or fear, because God live just of their pain and fear. I searched only help and found only lies wrap to sweet words. I asked to myself: "Why have I belive in the God when people killed in his name and he was only watching to it? When he is so powerful why stoped it? Why he let died innocents, which died because church wanted their money and lands?" I had a lot of questions and I realized, that I don't want belive in the God, which is demanding blood innocents for proof of belief.I began realize how belivers are afraid theyself and own humanity. They want be still something more and don't realize, that they are only humans, live beings with needs. Belivers are suffocating under the weight of God and his rules, which every men are ruining inside. God is making droops without backbone from people!
I think hasn't sense belive in so bloodly God, which doesn't recognize human's individuality. I was saying always, that belief is only for poor fellows without own will and own opinions, because only total droop is blind to truth and life and let the God decide of things, which God could never known.